Hello, As you can tell by my absence (I apologize for that) and by the title of this blog post you can guess what I am going to be talking to you about.
This blog, well what can I say.. . It’s given me a sense of achievement, a purpose and a hobby. It has helped me feel a little bit less worthless about myself and has now been a part of my life for almost two years. However my lack of enthusiasm for it has been getting me down. I love this blog honestly I do but I just haven’t been as interested in it as I once was. And to be perfectly honest it’s not fair on anyone reading this blog to have a haphazard or half arsed blog post (sorry for the swearing) and it’s not fair on me to do something that has started to feel a little bit like a chore.
So for now I am going to take a break, I don’t know how long the break will be for or if I’m even coming back but anyone who knows me knows how hard this decision has been for me. I do enjoy writing I really do but my writing interests have been pulled in a different direction.
The direction it has been pulled in is towards Shakespeare…
As you may or may not know I studied Acting at College. I went to one College, completed and passed a Level One Diploma in Acting. I then went to another College completed and passed a Level Two Diploma in Acting, auditioned and was excepted onto the Level Three Diploma course. But then I proceeded to have a huge breakdown, I turned down the course despite wanting to do it and went to the Doctors. And that’s when I started getting Mental Health treatment and well, here I am.
You see I loved Acting it has been the only thing that has helped rather than hinder my Mental Health. The structure and clear concise plannings of what we are going to do in the lesson worked well for me and the feeling that I am worthless and that other people can Act way better than I ever can pushed me to rehearse more and work harder so that when I did perform the piece it turned out good.
I had been thinking about this a lot recently and about how when I get better I’d like to get back into Acting as a hobby. So naturally when an old friend from College said she was thinking about starting a Theatre Company I was interested…
She gave me more information and asked if I wanted to join which I said yes to. So now I am part of a Theatre Company as an Actress and as a Writer (I had mentioned my scripts that I have been trying to write.) So although a small part of me does wish it would have come at a time when I was better… I am grateful to be a part of it and can only hope that my Mental Health doesn’t get in the way. (I promised myself that when I do get back into Acting then I wouldn’t have another breakdown, I wouldn’t give up on my dream and the thing that makes me happy and I sure as hell wasn’t going to let my Mental Illnesses stop me or get in my way.)
Which is where the Shakespeare comes in to it. I have been asked to write a modern adaptation of The Taming of The Shrew which I am currently working on. And I’m the sort of person who wants to give 100% to the work that I do whether that’s writing a blog, writing a modern adaptation of Shakespeare or whether that’s washing up and drying up so that’s what I’m going to do.
So this is where I am right now with my life and with this blog.
And who knows maybe one day I’ll start writing here again or maybe one day I’ll create a new blog but for now this blog is on hiatus.
Goodbye and thank you for sticking with me I truly am grateful.